Experiment

You called me your experiment

A simple test

Just to see if my waters

Were the kind you’d like to swim in

But you shouldn’t do that to women

Play with their feelings but

I was in too deep to really care

You trapped me with Stockholm Syndrome

I was happy just to matter

Thing is that I didn’t matter, I was matter

And you left me a mad hatter

With my feelings an irrelevant splatter

Swollen and infected with the bullshit you called “love”

I was research, nothing more

Left me crying on the floor

When you decided I was a bore that wasn’t worth your time

Maybe you experiment with love

Maybe you cut open my heart because

You don’t have one

My heart is not a frog drenched in formaldehyde

Don’t cut me up and look inside me

Identify the parts and see

“That’s the part I broke and fixed and broke again.”

“That’s the part that used to love me.”

I am not your experiment.

Not a project that you present to the class

And get an A because you learned

How to break a girl

You couldn’t love me if you tried

I still smell like formaldehyde

A stench that won’t wash out

No matter how much I try and scrub you

Out of my memory

I’m sorry Mr Scientist

I’m sorry if you’re curious

I’m sorry that I was an experiment that failed.