Inspiration! Is not outside.....

Few people get inspired by other people.
I get inspiration to do more when I am with my family, for my son and my husband.
They push me hard to do more for them. I didn't that much but they are not angry on me but husband says I have not done more than expected. He always complaints still how long you will know what I am. My only regret is I couldn't feed with hands to him and one more thing is I didn't iron his clothes.

Inspiration is a thing that makes you walk ahead. I worked in his office whatever I learnt from him I did. But was thinking I could have done more.

I wish to see him relaxed have a nap for his over thinking mind. He likes literature I was thinking he loves only poetry but now he is very good at grasping logic. Initially he had very poor score in math and engineering. Now he writes complex prose before it was silly stories and kind of confusing without clarity. Now he is writing so many lines that sync.

All his skills include leadership qualities, writing skills, diplomacy, solving world issues. His business acumen is kind of sustainable products.

If I stuck in facing any problem I just sleep on bed thinking what is wrong with me why I couldn't do it where I am wrong, asking God, what is that I am lacking. I just sometimes cry without any one knowing.

When life throws problems I seek my mother goddess, only by Pooja or chanting mantras. It may take a gap of time certainly I find solution to my problems.

I always wanted to tell him what is bothering why don't feel better.

I would see focus on one thing while it is getting finished do another one. My dad always warns me why you are doing two things at a time.
I got fed up with working in office I think I want to do something independently. So tried some websites and then opening up my store. For healthy living style organic oil which is wood pressed, rock salt and jaggery. That makes you fit. For mental strength you need to destress and then keeping less thoughts and more manual work. This makes you calm down. If you keep on writing, brain keeps on thinking. That will be like exploiting brain power. Just going to church lit a candle pray for everyone and being thankful for this second till now just makes you feel satisfied not thinking of lacking some skills and abilities.

I would do this praying God makes me relieved my pain. Why do we need to think one side of coin dare to see the other side by being bold, it is my mistake for the current second to be bad. Then definitely you will find solution to any problem.

I wish I am not that far to make him realise that he is not alone. I am here I come to him.

I love you alot and I miss you alot. If I see something wrong and danger I will stop going there I just don't want to waste my time knowing ill. I even scared to watch horror movies I just enjoy commedy movies. Horror movies spoil your thoughts process giving thoughts which never your brain can imagine.

Well I have come poverty led a rich life and to go down to poverty is not a problem. I have seen the way, now I know more better ways to handle financial problems.

In 2006 I didn't had money to appear for TOEFL, not even ticket price to travel to USA, later I travel frequently. Right now situation is also very tough not knowing what to do without job can't depend on parents. I was ready to work as kaamvali, I approached a family they are so courteous to support, I got lot of contacts for my future. I decided why to put so much effort in office where it was never valued. So I decided I can start my shop maybe a sabjiwali but not hesitating to do hardwork. But I need to see my son for that definitely I need to work. My dream also gets fulfilled as entrepreneur. I want to do differently.

I wish I could make sense to you. Please don't lose hope where you are wrong if you know that is the gap you had and then definitely you will go ahead.


Hoping it helps you Kanna.

Usha.