I miss him - my guru and my husband...

When whole world is separating me from marrying my Guru, I say I might be sun might be revolving around earth though the other way is right. Miss of his making me to burn with hydrogen fusion reaction where both of our hearts fusing into helium. its ever burning star.
In human form we might be far, but our hearts are fused into together to give light to this world.
I saw his pic he is just 2.5 yrs old and 3 feet tall, with a missing heart and face of 80yr old man with beard, he saw me for a second, I just realised how much he is missing me, I could forget everything and I just hug him tightly, never I see that adoration for me. I was thinking and crying where did I see before, why you are not coming to me? I just forgot what was going on just wanted to cry for him. I am missing you dear Shiva my dear husband.
Nothing I saw much deeper than his love no one could feel for me that much and in future too no one will not adore me like him.

As a lover boy he was cute and as purna sanyasi he was the first Guru..

I learnt alot from you, and I keep learning from you. You are good at teaching though sometimes you hurt me.

I am waiting for my death so that I meditate on you 24 -7.

In this human form we need to struggle for food and place to stay.

I miss you alot Jacob
Usha. J
My mother in law told me no need to change my name to Jessy.