I love studies..... But he writes.... Opposites attract

Two opposites attract and repel being like to fight back to get attracted.
He wants to see my anger and says don't get angry by poking in my ears and just says you freak out. I think I am screwed or you are screwed I get confused. He also loses just drinks and comes me and says why you are angry I am sorry.

I love studying but he loves to write. When asked he says I love writing novels poems ... When I am asked I love to read....

In my 10th class board exam I helped my friend who was topper on class in English exam, she got state rank and I got 46 marks less without being school topper but rank 10 in class. I was so surprised where did I lose marks. Later last month my Principal felt sorry missing me, that I didn't do good to you Usha, you were supposed to get state rank.

Anyways, I got placed in top 2 college in India, even though I went to govt college in plus 2.
I just want to tell you even when one does create tough situation blocking your way, we are elegible to get what we want that is how God ways are.

If it is tough time let's face it, our patience make you versatile..

I want to tell him that he thinks do big in one short. I say I am fine let's do but do you have capacity to handle if falls noone will be around you to lift. Keep yourself everything and risk too.
It's not that what you think is good and right, we are living in society.

I know I did take steps that hurt but I never that I am mentally ill. But sometimes I got sick not knowing what is true. They defined that an illness as Schizo, later I self diagnosed myself most of people said I am not paranoid there are so many who are worse than me, I am handled my life career family ... Never my x husband said I am sick until I told him medication which I was taking sometime. Then also he didn't say anything but just loved me.


He loves me handles me takes care of my every deed.

I love people around me few are wrong to me but few are loving me alot.
Even if I know or not I love Lord Krishna but he hurts me why I don't know.

Usha/Jessy Jacob