What is Love?? Everyone says differently.... But it is just four letters like ..,

Of cow legs walking in righteous path,
four legs of two people living for together seeking family,
four chambers in heart that keep the other inside,
Unites when married four parents with love of both parents
Four hands hugging each other
To cross 3 worlds of heaven hell earth in 1 way being together.
Four pillars of home which they build to stay together


As a girl, I felt love is bad thing that hurts studies, where parents supervise their kids not to fall in love, if so they get disturbed. So as a college girl natural attractions between girls and boys, but I never fell in love. During that I was introduced to yoga and meditation, I just followed my guruji, he taught me mantra to chant, I did my soul awakened to seek lord Krishna, from another swamiji, I learnt and us to treat yourself getting married to God krishna,
Eventually I tried God is invisible, so thought someone was made for me to marry him, but I started loving him when he was missing me very badly, walked out thinking I will take care of my son, incase if he doesn't marry me, that confusion he created hiding his love on me, trying to protect us, I never felt wrong what I was doing in every step I take, now I feel is it worth my life on this heaven when normal unknown strangers are hurting me even though I was being Nice to them.

My half life gone and look back it has been so much to be at this point, still same time to go further it hurts me badly, whom should I live for when myself is getting hurt.
Love is important at certain age, to live together and have family, it is also worth when other person is also waiting and it doesn't make sense when other person has walked out and married someone, and nobody tries to break his wedding, I had that big heart to ignore his mistake for Whatsoever reason. But it is a punishable act of he leaves the married lady too going beyond one more person, I feel does he needed love? It isn't first mistake that definitely God has to resolve why he is doing like this, so I did whatever I can, time difference or age difference is a block only to satisfy people ego, God will definitely show right path, but here God itself is doing wrong thing, then for why what reason he is struggling with can't he make his life lead with whom he loves, the other persons are so mentally evil, that he is like lord Rama has to hide and then kill Vaali, because he was stronger to kill Directly, I am not sure if scared to die, and take cowardly wrong path, then I would say why to live for, what is the purpose of being born as human are you doing any good to you your family and society, you are just not useful to anyone if you hurt innocents around you ..

Love teaches strength not sex, it protects you from doing wrong, if not then that love is lust which makes you fall in pit where you have everything but never come out from that pit.....

Love for life, people also love ever because it is the only purest form of seeking god to be with him and do good in any being. People often get mislead that it gives pleasure and evolve in that lust that never satisfy them. But if you love truly it will make you walk on fire balls, to the sky to beyond. The best example is my life for him which taught me to live when whole world is against me only to protect him from evil of lust. I feel I did right and keep doing loving him though I don't know what's going to happen next day but my belief and strength to protect our love and him will definitely make us to cross the life.

Anyways who does truly love will understand my power and who don't do love at all will blame me closing facts turning them as lie ..



I feel God tests true lovers what they are how they are loving each other,
If vamana avtar had asked bali to give 4 feet land, what he would have done to put fourth feet, is it like he would have asked his wife to put on her?? Even god teases till you are about to break, what is that when you break he will never have fun to do with.. this is the only reason for my life to sustain that he will not let me fall.

Jessy Jacob