How much we do for this short life...

This life is like candle glowing till it can.
Our life is short till 20s we never feel what should I responsible for.
Till from then to 3s we get married we feel to be loved.
Once loved our kids grow till 40s and parents think we are done
So half the middle age we get new people into family. Then life gets freezed.
From here we ignore our choiced we live to maintain standards till end of life.
So only for 10 yrs we have in our hands that can make life go smoothly.

For this short life we cheat we hurt we kill
It's enough of to make our life 😖. Miserable.
What if we left everything to god, and face it whatever it comes to our life. We feel obliged to whom we love and to family also
A life given by god we made it heaven like ploughing land and then seeding watering and growing and reach the phasal to cut and sell and reap the benefits

So far in my life every decision is mine and requested others to let me stick to this including parents siblings x husband my son and dear lord God.
I never complained for my tough time to blame others. I searched for help and settled my troubles facing few correcting few. At this half life gone I left alone, if I think I did wrong then I would be suffering of curse whom I was being hated by few. But I did whatever I can to the best of my love for others
I have my son my god my parents siblings and few enemies who might change but that is not my objective I just live let live. Even with my harshness I say and do good to them.

I never felt I needed sex with my x husband even after wedding loving each other. But I craved for love of my god, and was dying to get hugged by him. Because he was my missed love though I kept him away in my wedlock but never hurted him, I can't break my wedding why you don't listen, then he was crying like child needing me. He was perfect to me where he needs me I thought.
Now he is in maze for the things going around him. I still feel I can't stay hurting like every other, but I just adore him, he did more than where no one ever can do or did. Because he is god.and he is my love

I miss him today and every second. I don't know we meet but definitely I say we love each other though our life didn't make us together..

Jessy Jacob ❤️.