Follow karma result what you get is your life .

I do my karma dharma
Every breath I take my basis buddhi to decide my karma and perform dharma

To Every one else I just do what I can either help or guide

Every one else what they do for me is their karma
And it's not result of my karma neither my fate
My fate or destiny is what I perform.

My suffering is not the karma of others.
I see my suffering is result of my inefficiency or in capability
My success or good time is result of my hardwork and efficiency.

I see my tough path which I chose is only to explore
I don't need to count on others because of others I am suffering.
I just don't pull others into my suffering
Yea but I will be thankful to God and every other to share my happiness
Sorrow I would share who could listen to me.

There are lot of people who are so better in thinking
But this is my knowledge
For this you don't need to read religious books
Just do some good to others and feel how happy you are inside when that person says thank you or sorry.
For this Even god need not come to you to explain.

We forget and unable to think so we curse others we blame others because of you I am suffering.

Divorce was my decision
First wedding was my decision
Loving God is my decision
Leaving my son with his dad is my decision
Going back to my son is my decision
Coming back to my God is my decision
Staying with my parents is my decision
Living alone till my time comes to be with God is my decision

All these decisions nobody influenced me I had used my heart, budhi and brain to go through
Never I thought of consequences but I had trust in myself I could handle
I had both tough time with happy moments too
It's not that I never felt sometimes crying
But it took time to come out from that tough time it's not emotional imbalance but external things were too heavy to balance those moments with proper justification and decisions

Now I am alone it doesn't mean failure
Tomorrow I will be with my God that I am successful
Only I could feel why I took birth is for a reason
A part of whole of God to fulfill his wish
It's not that I hav to become billionaire and get money fame or blame .
Definitely I see personally I born in this current time I mean during this period is only to live my life facing these problems
It's not I feel I extract my happiness
Most of people doesn't have clarity why they are born and just simply live or either enjoy life at the expense of others.

I studied engineering entrepreneurship is my goal I work and want to giv employment
Millions of lacs earning was never desire
Neither enjoying life with sexual desires
My life was and has always been my family nation and planet.

I feel this life what I am facing is with great responsibility
I see lot of people learn from me
And also blame me
Teaching good is in my hands
But how they receive is not in my hands
Because for few see moon as light giving in dark night
But few say moon has dark spots
But few wait and enjoy the vennela the moon light

But for most of them in this generation feel like I am old following grand mother roots and outdated
But I feel I am better than current generation balancing my life leading tough life but few stay confused blame others hurt others and disturb other people ruin their life break family hurt ther career money and feel so great with out being guilty. This thought if you don't realise at any age either of 30 60 or 70 yrs then you will never get because these thoughts were in kids like adi shankaraacharya and at the tender age of Swami Narayan, you don't need to get grey hair or weak body that your brain starts thinking. It's the soul that makes you think at any age.

Long story short
At this time my age I am happy for debugging life lessons and blames of others though how much good I did still hurting me few as buffon or A1 category.
Whoever said these two I feel them courteous to them and I wish God giv brain and emotional heart to feel sorry for saying so..

I missed my God for not staying with me in his physical body but still I am with him feeling happy.


Jessy Jacob ❤️
With love....