Dear Amma!

Dear mom in law, 

How i will survive if your son keep on hurting me and himself. 

I am losing my life by living alone, 

couldnt even see my son, this year. 

medicine is also not helping. 

Before meds would have worked, today i realised the medicine is not working, 

i have to take either sleeping tablets or sit or sleep without breathing, 

if i stop my breath i am not feeling any pain, 

Is it that your son decided to get murdered by that miss Sastry??

I want to live for him and my son. 

For that my health is important, i am talking in my mind and with myself. 

If i see my future with these things happening again and again, I think i will not be surviving also, 

I will be left alone after my parents, Eshan will be leaving me, for his family of wife and kids, 

he will not be here in India, if your son wanted me to stay in India only, 

I am scared to have my second kid, if i get sick i will not be able to take care of him, 

I know i was cured but damaged by him, 

thinking your son only spoiled my healthy body, 

why is he doing?

he promised me to marry me, 

but he left me, alone. 

till now it has been 15 yrs, 

why did he met me, 

I was already in love with Krishna, 

I am not newly loving him,

then what are his intentions, 

I need my health back, 

if not one day will do suicide 

because this spoilt health by him is spoiling my life,

which i thought i needed for him and my son. 

I know he is not bad guy, for his things which are looking so, 

I know him, but he is fearing for something, and i think you better 

talk to him, i am helping in every way, but it is going the other way, 

if it continues, we both will die soon, that was the indication i got 

I thought if i am far away he is missing me, so i came here 

to india, here also he is hurting me, by taking wrong things over him, 

He is manipulating himself, i think there is no need to change for others. 

He is good he does good only, 

so we need to stop him in getting self-hurt. 

i am doing everything for him, but people are forcing him, to turn bad. 

I know this and trying to help him. 

But things are going beyond, he is hurting me, for others, why??

if something is bad that hurt us, we should either face it or ignore it. 

Giving life at the expense of me, to others, is not fair, I love him so much 

kindly tell him not to suffer. 

Jessy Jacob. 

wishing you with love and good health.