the moment till now i was..........

thinking, that what people need, a woman and man, 

few think they just need things to live happily 

few think they just need to live 

few think they dont need to bother about anything

I tell about myself, i need what?

since childhood through teenage, 

i never thought i should love someone 

when i was in college, guys get so much freedom to find a girl

they flirt, and follow her

i am something i think i shouldn't get cheated by any guy, 

so think about the person who is he what is he

i focused on my career, because my mother used to say i need

to study more and get job, 

i did finished earning degree and then found job 

then what? wedding so parents stay happy for finishing responsibility

so i got arranged wedding, then what kids, i gave birth to baby boy

then it is finished in thinking of any guy 

But life showed me different turn in my life, 

that is a requirement for him to be with him,

because i dreamed to marry Krishna, i did and so he came 

to me to take with him, i got divorced,

then his intention said he cant marry but he loves me

ok, fine, then he married what is right for him, 

later when i was missing him, again i moved to his home, 

leaving my son with his dad, then it is what now......

Is it that i did lived life with love and responsibility 

This world is short so as life too,

we live life doing which is impossible,

every step of my life there were impossible challenges

I overcome and faced every challenge, and still facing, 

I feel i am in race never stopped or scared of situations 

but suffered, my beloveds always helped me and took care of me

with the same belief i live and love 

life is not scary how you make yourself flexible and 

focused so that no one can damage your life

when i see back i still scare how i faced my challenges, 

honestly i was not alone though it was my life, 

i was with my man and i was complete. 

for a normal being, after wedding, life is fixed, 

but western culture gave new thoughts, 

i would say once you fail in relationship

but constantly failing in relationship then 

you are a fault in relationship, but few think

they can do anything, no one can defeat them in their race,

so I wasn't a rabbit nor a tortoise in race 

but i am human being and i love my man, 

for he is the best and no one can hurt our life,

neither anyone could dare to kill us, as we are 

immortal lovers and love is not just getting into 

mood with drink, drug and smoke, it is paying 

so much to life to make our heaven under this sky 

He suffered so much, though from a rich family 

it showed him so many troubles, till after wedding

also he is suffering, where he supposed to raise kids,

people are masturbating his richness to get hold off 

I am suffering getting hurt my health with bad spell, 

when you say telepathy then definitely you need to believe 

negative energy, when you say meditation then you 

need to believe bad spell and evil mind and aura. 

Anyways, in the life race we dont know who winner is 

but in the end it will be known who is the culprit,

for a winner he doesnt think of win or lose he only 

focuses on his race, and ultimately the right person 

who qualifies by God is the winner. 

I dont know what i write is not a write, i use rhythm 

wording and content, what i am missing is words of adjectives, 

how much time it would take for right words i never thought of vocaub

till my degree for doing masters, i am independent writer

i am not expecting my poems to be praised i just express 

my feelings, its not my problem when a reader wants a kick 

i would say get drunk you will definitely get a kick

Jessy Jacob