A wife and husband relation

It has been both worst and also best relationship, the wife and husband

It is a exploiting relationship for one who keeps on exploiting

It is a bee and honey relation for those who canstantly love each other

At this age of 45 yrs where i have been best wife to my X husband where he realised later how i was to him and family

I believed in my twenties, these humans just cheat and i need to seek God for the best love from him,

but it changed my view on this, when my x husband has given so much to family and loved me so much, 

and it changed entirely that a lover relationship that just keeps on exploiting for money and f**k

I was so much scared even to go to near my x husband because i was scary to get sexual relation, it was so much i made up my mind that i need to love my husband and shouldnt stop him touching me and was thinking that love should be there before wedding. And slowly i made my relationship to be bonded stronger and slowly made my life heaven. 

Later i thought love can make heaven in a wedding, i loved him so much that no one got that love from me to him, very soon he is just not satisfied and hurted me and left me even without talking that now i am looking old. 

I thought love can make a relationship grow best but it is wrong and i have seen my sisters who loved and dated but now in their 40s they think they got wrong husbands in their life 

Love is not that one thing that can nurture the relatioship, it is the compassion how you care about the person, even a stranger says thanks when we say thank you to him for any help, why cant husband can treat you as princess when you came leaving everything for him. 

I dont think i was wrong in my x husband he is good person that i left him to protect who acted as if he will die without me. 

God topic is separate thing and i dint know God came to me to cheat me or hurt me. 

Jessy Jacob