As i lead my life

As i lead my life, i felt still i am alone

not leading the life maybe a rickshaw puller like

because he has got wife and children

Now i see alone in my life 

no one to talk no one to listen to me

no one to share the feelings which i want to 

was i did wrong when literally lost myself when i cared for him

it costed me my son too

but to till now there was nothing needed to perform better even though i cared and lost everything

I got the opportunities which i used with smartness to close my debts

and started saving for my son and my retirement, every opportunity

i tried to do best in my life though it left me alone, 

The one who I cared so much now enjoying got hand full job and pocket full money, 

i cared my parents they are with me in my misery and need

grew my son with positive thoughts

helping people in Iraq who are nothing harmful than Indians, 

working and giving my best to the company where i work......

So much i did but i still feel i am not leading the life which i wanted and a ideal life

where you have home, husband, kids, and busy career, handling home by cooking and keeping home good. 

how to overcome this dearth in my life, 

I started talking to myself as if i am talking to a real human who is my husband,

i am chatting with my son, as if i am just a phone chat away

I am earning to build home very soon i will have my home

still i dont know and want to keep busy myself so started this online fashion design classes

that i will make busy using the lunch break and in evening i want to do business management degree

i know if i focus for next 10 yrs i can make career grow high. 

if i feel still to keep busy my life i will do one more course work just earning degree and knowledge too...............

Jessy Jacob. 

Reviews

[JessyJacob]

senior executive programs would help, but it is waste of money and time, rather focus on jobitself and do more work with active participation and extending yourself and do more. Stretching out will help in growing further. Looking for global roles in the company and self-learning in every task i do will help.