My life as is but why its so?

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My life has given me much�"born of hard work, patience, and faith. What I lost was not due to foolishness, but to the many turns life demanded of me when I stood at crossroads and had to choose a path. I chose my way, and it rewarded me beyond expectation, though it often meant walking alone. My path may have looked strange to others. My husband warned me not to take it, but I convinced him that what I was doing was good�"for us. In time, he understood my decisions and their purpose.

Is it wrong to want to be with my husband, at least in old age�"not for joyrides or pleasures, but simply to care for one another? I love him deeply. Even for a moment, I cannot imagine life without sensing his presence.

I know I must support myself and face my fears, especially the reality that I must be able to care for myself in retirement. I am in my perfect middle age. If eighty-five is a normal lifespan, I still have a long road ahead�"many strides to take and much more to achieve. I focus on my health, on staying fit and strong for him, so that he feels safe and supported.

This journey I have chosen is a milestone�"one filled with struggle, faith, and responsibility. I walk this path for God and to help people believe in themselves. I stand here with one worry in my heart: when will wars end, when will people live in peace, and when will leaders choose decisions that truly benefit the world?

It is the responsibility of strong men and women to step forward, to go one step further. I stand for those soldiers who fight for their land, who live with hope�"to glimpse God in the faith they carry, and in the people they protect.

My life belongs to God. I live for Him so that people who follow Him may be safe and at peace. I feel His presence with me always protecting me, worrying for me. I believe deeply that when you surrender yourself to doing good, God will take care of you. Today, many fight for power, but a true warrior needs no luxury bed or mighty fortress. Wherever such a person stands, they are a king�"because they serve others.

Power does not come from a crown or a chair. Place a chair in your own home, wear a crown, and see who listens. Only goodness protects us and gives us real strength.

I have lost many things, but loss was never a reason to stop. I continued to strive, even when I was losing, because the journey itself was right. I did what I was meant to do.

I lost simple moments�"hugging my husband, watching my son play football, teaching him math, cooking for my athamma, making my father-in-law proud. Yet I gained milestones that matter deeply: keeping my mother-in-law safe and happy, standing beside my husband in his struggles, and living fully for my family.

This is the life of Jessy Jacob.

It was never complete without my husband and my son�"who walk with me every second, watching my journey, shaping me into a complete woman and building with me a happy family.

Jessy Jacob