Dear my Valentine,...

Hope you are doing well

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**Missing You Beyond Words**


Hope you are doing well…
I know somewhere in your silence
you miss me too.

I never said it,
never spoke it over the phone,
never let the words travel
through trembling breath�"

That I love you.

But today, in this letter,
with all the courage of my aching heart,
I say it now�"
I love you.
I need you.
I miss you more than words can hold.

Only God knows
what we are going through.

Life feels like a chessboard sometimes�"
moving pieces, replacing them,
playing to win.
I watched the game,
I learned the moves,
but I never replaced a soul
to achieve my dreams.

I lived gently.
I walked softly.
I chose not to hurt anyone.

Maybe like volleyball�"
hands lifting the ball to the sky,
letting it fly free,
never holding it down.

And right now,
in this very second,
all I want
is to see your face�"
that face I imagine
thinking of me.

You told me,
“Forget the past. Let it go.”
But tell me…
did you let it go too?

We sit in this writer’s café of life,
reading each other’s words,
as if you are beside me�"
as if all it takes
is one small message,
one simple “Hi… how are you?”
to bring you close again.

I know you try
not to disappoint me.
And I live with that�"
because without hope
I would have been truly alone.

If someone asks me
what your touch feels like,
I would say�"

Like touching an iceberg,
cool and powerful.
Like breathing in your favorite aroma.
Like kissing a newborn baby’s cheek.
Like a thousand volts of current
running through my heart.
Like placing a finger into fire
when I look into your eyes.

These are my imaginations�"
my hidden treasures.

Yet life has taken so much from me.
Left me standing as a single mother,
carrying responsibilities,
working, surviving,
missing my son,
missing you.

Still I walk.
Still I lead.
Still I hope.

With faith that somewhere
you are happy…
and loving me from afar.

I do not know what tomorrow brings,
but my mind stays strong.
My heart still believes�"
God will never hurt us without reason.

I miss you, kanna.
More than yesterday.
More than words.

Happy Valentine’s Day.

Forever loving you,


Jessy Jacob ❤️
Happy valentine's day...
Missing you so much ❤️.