She found herself in me

To the guy I lost myself with

Isn't it funny how many times we told ourselves never to be madly in love again? How often we try to be the best version of dark and cold human beings as we can be? We've built this walls so strong that not even us could break it. We've put a lock in our hearts and threw the keys away not knowing someone might have it and return it to us.

We used to be friends for a couple of days and got really comfortable with each other's company. Days passed and we're half way through our training period when the humor and little love jokes turned into something incomprehensible . I was scared, really scared to feel something that hasn't been felt for so many years. I betrayed myself for letting love in. I was confused. Devastated. I lose it all.

But all the worries and roller coasters of emotions slowly fades away when I felt that we're on the same side of this story. Two souls who drifted apart with their "the one" whom they thought was actually "the one", met just in time to fix each other's brokenness . I know, we are the ones who are responsible on fixing our own, but when you have someone to look forward to, someone whom you want to give yourself wholeheartedly with no damage from the previous failed relationships, it just gets better. You don't deserve someone who comes back, you deserve someone who never leaves.

I promise to take care of your heart. The past left you sensitive and weakened. So I promise to listen to you when you are angry, I will love you more when it gets harder. I will shower you with every kind words, and never make you wish you had never met me.

We fell in love because we needed to brush spiderweb off our aching, desperate hearts and outdated emotions.
Because we need to remember how to feel. This is not a mediocre relationship. We both want something that would last a lifetime. A relationship that we'll both take care until we're old and gray. You are my kryptonite, my weakness and my biggest downfall . I need you. I just do.

Thank you for making me feel.
For revitalizing every inch of me.
For inspiring me to write .
And for making me realize that it's okay to be a perfectly imperfect human being.

I want to be someone who will remind you of your strength and greatness, how you survive every single hardship that life throws you. Even if you can make it on your own, I still want to be there for you. You will never again fight this battle alone.
I believe in you. I guess I never really lost myself in you, I think I might have found my missing piece in you. I love you....

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