Eternally and Fated

I can’t stop

He is in my thoughts

I want to touch myself but I need to regain control

Purging out  on the page

As a writer I want to be bold

I don’t want to give in to the hold

Yet I long for his embrace

Always him I crave

Its bad

He is in my path

I can’t justify

I just let it be

Praying the good lord will forgive me

I let him do what ever he needs to do

I can live without him for a few days

To say goodbye forever leaves me in a haze

One day, some way I believe we will be together

Maybe I am chasing fool’s gold

Yet its the faith that keeps me going

If it was destiny we will be

I let it go

The power is not mine

if you ask me why

I can’t say goodbye

I feel  butterflies when he is around

When I hear his voice

When I read his text

When we lie together naked

When I am on top of him

Life feels so divinely sacred

I am sorry it has to be a sin

I wish I could turn back time

Turn a path and never reply to his okc note

All I know its done

I am in love

He says he has feelings

He probably needs sexual healing

I love how he only needs it from me

Maybe he is out there loving other ladies

I was watching Grace and Frankie

Their husbands had a twenty year affair

The more I grow the more nonsense is there

Love justifies life

Jesus gave His love away

Without it I wouldn’t be here today

I don’t regret giving mine

I will have to see if God can forgive me

Though I am unworthy

This the imperfect me

Loving a man the way it was meant to be

Imperfectly and complicated

Eternally and fated

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

wow this is long and very good reading, i liked it a lot, i could relate to a lot in my life in your poem
maybe paragraph it a bit,
for easier reading for oldies like me lol
i run competitions my current one is on love. Ok take care and thanks for the read!