Collapsed

How does a building collapse

In his embrace I could nap

Now I am on new map

I feel like a lazy cat

I pray all you evil ones will scat

I pray for all under the rubble

For all walking through trying to understand the struggle

On earth we are all destined to hurt

I thought we would make it for better or worse

He never wanted me to go

Yet this love is just  a curse

I am sad but I must make it through

I am sad but I will adjust to life without you

Why do we crave the bad

Why do I crave you knowing I am left with this empty hand

Something is broken in me

Now I see

when he found me i was so filled with grief

That I came alive with his laughter that accompanied me

From there we grew in to five years

Yet my love is still not enough for me to keep you near

it hurts to watch you go back and forth

watch me slam the door

Let this bridge collapse forever more

Never will I return

Never will I love you not like this

I wish I could have been taken but my mission is not complete

Life is so hard to live when somewhat loved

consumed by dead dreams

how does a building collapse

We were standing tall

We didnt feel the earthquake at all

I was in your arms and I felt myself fall

I am no booty call

I am a heart and mind

i am a girl who was kind

Still you choose your abusive wife

I dont understand this life

I dont have to

I say goodbye

under the moon

of all the bullshit from you

I am on a new map

Away from the site, there are no tears to cry

just the frustrating agony inside

Above the rubble

Trying to find others who help you understand the struggle

In your arms I could nap

I am just a lazy cat figuring out this new map where a building collapsed