A Jaded Heart

I dont want to think of you

We cant give every day

He cant always stay

Sometimes I think its best to live untamed

Now vows to break

just us leaving the door open

in to a path that gleams golden

Yet we have sinned something is stolen

yet in a way being without him leaves me broken

i tried very hard

He has a hold on my heart

Keeping me from going too far

Maybe the absence makes the heart fonder

All this I wonder

I have no answer

I didnt hear from him today

He is a butterfly I can't catch

He says he wants me but outside forces doesn't allow the eggs to hatch

If she found out he would want to die

I ask why beg me back why come back in my life

Then he says I am addicted my little time with you is paradise

What can I do

I want to stay away from you

Every time I try I lose but its one more day I get to keep him

I just needed one more touch

One more kiss

Life sure does suck when you are without life's true bliss

I pour poetry in to this making it seem its a dream

He is my nightmare

my heartache

we are so confused

yet my jaded heart feels amused

I know I can't keep you

Maybe thats why I stay

I am broken inside also in a way

Thats why we connect

I take whatever love I can get

Its all I can handle

One day God will blow out the candle

He can't break the covenent that has been made

One day our love will fade

my jaded heart waits for that day

I know nothing is forever

Yet when we kiss it feels better together

So i take whatever

I am a lonely queen

With a jaded heart lost in a dream

Waiting for true love's kiss to wake me