In These Gray Skies

inspired by the rain

The california sky cries

the rain comes down

everyone doesnt go out

my friend Dan asked me if i wanted to hike

He said at ten? i said maybe eleven?

then he says i am not brave

he will go in the rain alone

so this is why i often stay home

nothing makes sense

all these guys are different but the same

i just havent found the one who knows love is not a game

in the meantime i can have my fun

but i hope one day the rain will wash away all the pain

nourish the seeds of love

help us grow to be the selves God decided on long ago

sometimes I run

sometimes I am scared of you

all i really want is to hold you tight

i know you cant be mine

i just want to kiss you as long as we can

i dont bank on forever

i know its not real

so even though its stolen treasure

the rain reminds me of my true pleasure

God doesnt want to keep me unhappy

sometimes though no matter what our free will keeps things crappy

we dont know only love can nourish the darkest soul we lost control

yet we glow still in these gray skies

under the autumn hazy light

i still find myself

i am not dead at all

He is the only one who catches my fall

I thank Him for the forgiveness

i forgive me

i just love thee

i am single and free

i have to start the next chapter

i dont know where it leaves us

not happily ever after

i just want everyone to know

i didnt die at all

Even in the rain

surrounded by pleasure and pain

He catches my fall

parts of me fall away like dead leaves

yet one thing remains thats the love i still feel for thee

i know its not our time but my self is still in peace

God gave me permission to love life

because of Him we still glow even in these gray skies