Deep in the Heart

How can you love me

When you dont love anybody

you are stuck in a place of purgatory

he asked me to stay there with him

he asked me to save him from that lonely place

i felt for him so my heart stayed

isn't that funny

not all love tales are lovely

i was like you before

always saying oh that other is a w***e

that spouse is breaking up his own house

never did I want to go on the path of a

but i am not the married one

he said its harder on the husband

i thought he is truly showing me his insanity

now i see he is right

he carries the pain and the guilt

he is so broken inside  but he cant destroy what is built

yet he doesnt want to leave me alone

i knew from the start what we would become

i didnt shake my b***s at him

i didnt drop my pen

so he could pull my a*s in to his hands

i am not the one calliing him when i need a ride

he tells me he likes to help me when he can

i ask him why

he can choose a better life

work it out with his wife

do what is right

he doesnt want to be an a*****e

he cant let me go

these are the things he shows

i learned to love without asking anything in return

now i dont know what to do

how can i leave you

i dont even want to

yet i know i must

i am no saint

i am no perfect one

i am ashamed

but the outside force is also love

even in the darkest day

it finds a way

when the dreams are fading

i will be waiting

i will still love you

i am no abuser

i am a lover

even apart

we still hold this dream deep in the heart

its not right

but i didnt write this story

i just write what i found

a love before time

a love that is real now

i write it out because i am always asked why

the answer i also want to find

i dont know myself

i am in good health

i had two good parents

i was not cookie cutter form

but life is also unkind

i am an angel maybe his assigned

who knows

answers remain unknown

my heart isn't stone

i just had to love him so and so i did

its the sweetest sin

the taste of his lips

what have i done

how did it all change

he turned me around

i try to go back to who i was before

deep in the heart i know there is only you

i never let go because i love you so

i write it here

because i know we aren't to have and hold

i dont want to be stuck where he his

i dont want to be the wife killed or the fiancee left for dead

the news takes me for a spin

i have to stop reading it

i wasn't looking to sin but i couldnt erase the taste of this kiss

even when we are apart i know he is still with me i am still with him deep in the heart

Reviews

[poetgurl]

So many different emotions run through this write, nicely presented