A New Machine

January is my month

The true love that bore this cold blood

The moon and the black skies swirl

To make this half white/ filipino girl

I lost my love

or who i thought he was

i let him go i know longer

yearn for you  lover

i grieve what has been lost

the dream torn in sparkly dust

sometimes it be that way

let the broken pieces of me fall where it may

I evolve in to a new machine

So you see

With God nothing can break me

I am proof of His undeserved mercy

I have the strength to walk alone

on this cold stone planet we call home

I yearn to learn

how to use the pretest optometry machines

i am now an optometry assistant

i feel the fire of phoenix warming me from a distance

stay where you are my love

i cant take what isnt mine

i forgot i was an angel from above

i was sent to heal your broken inside

it just gives me a reason why for the lonely chapter of this life

My mind grows fat on fantasy

its hard to love reality

i think this is why i cant connect to you and you to me

we are flying different planes

but i saw him through the mirror

i saw his demonic horror through the curtain

i still loved you thats for certain

i shock myself with this fact of horror

stranger things

helps me fly on broken wings

he texts me he misses me

is this all that you can do

what is the point

though i dont speak he hears my voice

make no mistake i am no fool

i just cant forget that i love you

our love is doomed

founded on broken rules

we knew from the start

but God blows His merciful breath in to my undeserving broken heart

to me its the greater prize

i wouldnt want to be forever parted for it would be an eternal winter night

yet its the kind of true love

that gave birth to this cold blood

through the dark clouds of moon

i still see the same old me coming through

hopefully i can be the stronger evolving

smarter optometry assistant

hopefully success wont be so far in the distant

my age makes my bones feel so old

yet my soul is flighty like the echoes of laughing children

i find myself stronger still then i have been

I evolve in to a new machine