Do I ever cross your mind?

Do I ever cross your mind

Am I someone you want in your life

Your text says I miss you

Its the same thing you do

I dont know why some people get happily ever after

Then others get the ugly chapter

All I dream is this

a sweet kiss

a hand to hold

sharing hot chocolate

all i desired was true love true bliss

it doesnt come the way we expect

i dont want what isn't mine

i just have to wander why

just tell me good bye

if you are going to live your seperate secret life

yet inside i am wishing we are together

i wish we were forever

i know this aint it

for now i am stuck in this beautiful night mare

some girls have boyfriends families dont approve of

some have husbands that leave them cut

some have it worse

but sometimes this is the single girl's curse

i pray God will show mercy and give me what I dont deserve

Yet love heals the hurt

I want what He serves

I dont complain

I just wish my lover would be true

tell me I am the one he choose

but even if he do

would i want you too?

so this is where i must be untill that one sweet day

love comes my way

till then i will be stuck in this beautiful nightmare

but iam not alone

i feel my father's love in the opal stone in the ring on my finger

the memories of him always linger

this is what it is

somethings I dont want to control

no matter what

I am alive and well in my soul

thoughts of us swirl my  brain like clam chowder in a bread bowl

creamy but clumped

tasty but stumped

one day i will find love

there is a love in me

there is a love within my dogs and family

there is a love for me

there is a light in me

still more life to live even at 42

Iam ready for you

Why live this kind of life

why wont this bond untie

do i ever cross your mind?