Lonely Heart Here

Its so hard to be here

Its you I am missing

I wish right now we were kissing

Nothing about us makes sense

We cant let go

I cant block you

I try to move on

I try to be smart

Everytime I do

I feel so blue

Like I can't breathe without you

I am completely lost If our connection wont come through

I know you cant stay

i know it can't be faked

Why does he come to me with his lies

Only going  blind when I am looking in his eyes

When his hand is in mine

His voice in my ear

Texts sent sweet to this lonely heart here

We dont even get a day

We only get 30 MINUTES

He brings me halo halo

Yesterday I sat on his lap on the couch

I shouldnt have done but I couldnt do without

I like it when we are kissing

Even when we are together its him I am missing

I dont know how to let go

So i just live here alone

I watch to many true crime you tube videos

the spouse killed the wife

the husband was cheating the whole time

fiancees and high school sweet hearts meant to marry now buried in the ground

How do we trust each other now?

I dont want to settle for this life of doubt

I dont want to settle for this life of guns

I dont want laws banning her body

I dont want to bury children in the ground

Why is life on earth so expensive

who gets to decide on these prices?

When we no longer accept the lies?

We fed our minds

From the beginning of time

The cycle is a carousel of the same

Dont let this story be swept under the rug

Dont react with rage

Let love replace the gun

let love replace the bomb

let love replace the law

let love be the price

how can it be

are all these things just dreams

just like the one between you and me

He can't leave the violence that awaits him at home

Yet i am in his heart thats what he says in the text on the phone

nothing on this adult hood makes sense

I want to go back to being a child

lets rewind time

start a new

maybe then this dream can come true

till then its you I am missing

I wish we were still kissing

As I reread the sweet texts that appear

to this lonely heart here