The me I need to be

It was absurd

To think i deserved

to be your girl

I was never anything

When the one you live with still comments i love you baby on your facebook

so i am flying far away from here

never will you touch me again

i was deep in foolishness

i am not even mad

just aware of the fool I am

I was alice in love with mad

This is our last dance

playing out to the sad

it was absurd to believe anything else would be had

I will just remember our last moment on lands end

how you got nervous when you saw your friend

you spun me a web of lies

fairy tales that only ends in goodbye

will there ever be a different ending for the innocent girl

that must be the reason why I got so lost in this world

it could have been worse

he could have thrown me in the ocean

he could have left me on the campground

this is our last dance

it ends on the note of sad

the silver lining is even less grand

its absurd to believe anything else would be had

our love was a strange thing

when you wake up after one chat and realize I feel nothing

Good by my love

to the made up angel from above

I wont give up on the quest

As soon as I get through I will find my way to pure love and happiness

It was absurd to believe love could come from toxicness

I feel sorry for the spouses who live like this

allowing your partner to be open just make it on the down low

Its like its ok to cheat as long as no one knows

I wont live like this

i am the true angel

fallen for a wicked spell

i thought it was ok it was enough to just love you

at least by your side i could love you

even angels are imperfect

in the end this journey was worth it

i found myself closer to a dream

More knowledge of what I dont want to be

It doesnt make me feel any less hurt

yet its absurd

to believe in our story

the dream was so lovely i couldnt look away

now i can when everything is obvious that we are fake

he always tries to make me stay

only gives me crumbs

while the actual wife expressed words of love

she wins

she was there first

i grew fat on fantasy

our love is a stranger thing

i wake up and find we are nothing

i am not left with broken wings

i take these new ones and fly

i remembered the girl inside

the one who believes in love and fairy tales

happily ever after

sadly you can't be that for me

even though this road is lonely

i must walk with the truth

i dont like you

i dont want you

i dont need you

i dont love you

see me not loving you ever again

we dont need to talk for awhile

maybe in time when truth shines in my smile

who knows

i am not angry

i just have to let go

remember the me I need to be