Final Goodnight

I can dream a new life

I dont need to steal from a wife

I dont need to cling to this well disguised knife

Its the lover not the love

Still he is the one I dream of

I can't change his stripes

When its wrong it can never be right

I say my final goodnight

There was something in his eyes that first day

I heard his voice he sounded like my soul mate

It was just red flags enticing the bull

An emotional beast hungry for a feast

Now I feel full

At this forbidden door she found a way through

She thought this was the place of truth

Now I know I was blinded by the dream

Growing fat on fantasy

I am not ashamed

I am not sad

I went for what I wanted

i paid the price

Now I dream of a new life

I want what He wants for me

My will is His will

He wants to keep me still

After all the sins I made

Even when I say I am not ashamed

My movements were from love and faith

However the price is paid

Just like the couple who stole tequila from Safeway

The dog bit his neck he can speak but no longer sing

They say the dog was doing the wrong thing

He goes to church and sings the choir

So do I

I can still mismanage the path get in to the fire

Triggered by my desire

I am understanding the lesson

I am still so far from heaven

This is where I must be

Yet I have a new dream

I have a new path

i wont look back

Thats why we met

to give me the lessons I wont forget

I pray to be better

I pray I can get myself together

I dont need a crutch

I dont need a loveless touch

I need the real dream

I blocked him and he no longer calls me

We reached the end

Its always sad to say goodbye to a friend

Either let me be or dream a new dream with me.

This wrong cant be right

I say my final goodnight