Very Sad Chapter

No happily ever after just this sad chapter. :(

There is no place for us we were a mistake

I am aware of the facts

I am wide awake

Even the universe did something that still made my heartache

He was my uber driver for the night

Stranger then ever before than any time

The fact you just want to hug goodbye

Instead of saving us from not coming alive

Really sparks intellect in my mind

The fact he makes plans for a year or the next

For someone he feels for their mental health

Its ok to love your wife in the end

I didnt want you to leave her with me

Yet I cant stop wanting the dream

I have to block him now and forever

Because I was blocked from the beginning

Never did I see

I was young and naive

A young butterfly chasing human love that often fleets

I am the messenger of love

Perhaps I am the angel from above

Just like Nicholas Cage in City of Angels

Except I am Meg  with smashed bike

S**t out of luck in this love life

The message from him is clear

i am not the one you love dear

But if you choose her you cant keep coming to me

I want to be free

from pain and confusion

I just want true love

Sad our connection was an illusion

If I was not just a toy saying good bye is not an option

Allowing me to block you would not be a choice here

There would be no giving up

Still he tells me in every way he is too busy

Driving uber for her

Why stop smoking for me?

Why stay married just for health benefits

I dont know you I never did

I am so mad at myself for falling for that spell

See be careful who you touch

Be careful when filling that head with whispering words of forever playing with our minds so much

So many spouses and partners killing each other

He is just another m**********r

I am just so angry inside

Why did we feel the butterflies

Why did we see each other tonight

Why stay away instead of showing me you want to stay

over and over i am burned by the flame

I loved you all the same and in your head it was just a game

I should have cancelled the ride

i dont know I was a deer in the headlight

Maybe my heart just wanted to see you one last time

To remind of why I need to block you for life

There is no happily ever after

just the ending to this very sad chapter.