No more feeling in me now

I start my separate life

I start a new

If I can't have the dream my way

I dont want to be with you

I wont be your side chick

I wont be your friend with benefits

I will be your nothing

Your almost something

Yet its not me you cry for

If you are ok sleeping with her all this time

Dont tell me you miss me

Dont tell me you will always be there

If you are living with her and sleeping with her every night

You quit smoking

Not this joke life

why keep me hoping

why not just keep going

you dont have a crystal ball

why not tell me you are just a player after all

why keep up the charade

of being a good guy

you are not right in the mind

all i can do is wish you well

that the divine light will touch your heart of stone

the heart you let turn so cold

why was there warmth in your hold

now i see this wasn't my home

I'm getting good at goodbye

So just forget me like you did all this time

I know now when you held me it was nothing

All those butterfly feelings we thought were something

Were just flatlines of love

We never had a heart beat

I cry for this dead dream

no matter how i tried to make it come to life

you just wouldnt be mine

you kept running everytime

i was just a game to play for every guy

why is that all you see when you look in to my eye?

now i go on in this separate life

i know longer want this dream

it just keeps cutting me with that same old knife

i let the blood drip out

no more feeling in me now....

Reviews

[NelliKong]

Loved reading this. This poem is very relatable and I can feel each word jump off the page. Cant wait to read more of your writing.