Love never showed

Now everything hurts

How did I get here

I now am ready to do the work

I have to get out of that toxic atmosphere

you were lying to me

when you said i was the one you need

all this time you were never trying to break free

I dont know why you came to me

knocked on my door

just to give me more

of the pain

let the flood in from your toxic rain

I hate you now I will hate you for all time

I loved you but you could not afford the ferrari of this life

why take her out for so many test rides

i hate the way you used me

i hate the way you left me

after all our days why did i not see

so lost in the bubble

all the trouble

of this toxic seed

I wanted love you see

remember I told you I was never a good FWB

I feel like you forced me

Yet there was a loneliness so deep blinding me

I thought i was the best one

your best love

why am i not the chosen one

you are concerned about her mental health

what about me

there is no feelings for me you can act on

so why carry on

I will be strong

even though I am in the midst of all this shameful wrong

i am finally free

let the shame lives in me

you want to do a goodbye hug

you should want to stay with me in love

then i think and laugh glad i got rid of that nasty bug

it doesnt make sense

all this pretense

everything hurts

i just want to get out of this painful atmosphere

sam smith is my only solace here

he understands the sadness

we need men to not add to the madness

oh why were you so cruel baby

we were toxic and crazy

this is not how love goes

i see now your love never showed