Unplug

something new, different...

.....I miss my jaybird...wish i could have been a better daughter...oh how the grief can still hurt..instead I was the married man's lover..now I am dreaming in the desert for water. I  want to feel that ecstasy. Powerful love spilling over me.. lets get naked swim in that sacred pool…enjoying the blue cool..oh but dead Spirit are you ashamed of what I have become. who would know I would have a dark side isn’t what they say its always the silent ones…I miss my jaybird. i am trying to adult it feels like an evil curse. I am the black sheep of my family. The trouble maker, broke a*s poet but I found beauty in the unplug of my life. I used to be a working machine now I am broken down but i feel my spirit awakening and healing. i want to keep this path long as possible. i want to retreat grow like that strong cherry blossom that special lotus but I need love. i want to give love. i don’t know how So I pray to God above give me a miracle romance oh for love let there be that one chance where i can hold my old friends hand and we will never let go only loving each other because hearts never lie they just feel the love. I see the jay bird fly over my garden. my heart refuses to harden. no matter how dark the path. no matter how much pain i feel in the after math. I trust God’s plan and that’s the one I follow for all tomorrow I just hope I see my jaybird beyond the rainbow in my pot of gold there will be true love for me to hold close and when I sleep there will be love under my pillow...