World without you

today we celebrate you
May 12 I still love your more than anything in the world
love your babygirl
life is a bittersweet truth
45 how can I still be alive without you
I want to know what you would say about the politics
I didn’t cherish our times together
now he went up in his balloon house forever
why didn’t you let me come
I want to see what you see
i want to know will you still remember me
will you want to
after all that you have seen
i fell in love with so many men
gave my body away
looking back i didn’t see an end
the last one is still staying married
but i learned in time to leave before you get left
i didn’t know what to do
i was surviving a world without you
i tried to be fine
but in hindsight
i was blind
so here i am down in the dumps at 45
unemployed no love from a boy
i still try to hold to the joy
but slowly the joy is getting lost
all i feel is the bites from the frost
but today i felt tears from heaven in the little rain
there were blue skies and sunbeams
maybe despite it all we can still turn the tears in to diamonds
for when it was raining
you always made me sparkle like one
he was a man with a grade 2 education
no one is perfect
but he is worth it
i would choose you over again
i got the country music playing
its may 12 and I wish together we could be celebrating
i still love you more than anything in the world
love,
your baby girl