JBird

for my father in heaven on father's day one nickname was Jaybird

Dolly Parton sang again for you love is like a butterfly
we always had it on play in the car
now its on repeat like a tattoo on my heart
I am grateful that Jbird is the dad of my earth life
I was almost thirty when he died
I was acting like a spoiled child
he said you will miss me when I am gone
I said you aren’t going anywhere
then on that stormy night
a heart attack triggered his heavenly flight

now he is not there

just his empty chair

all the time I see the blue jay in my garden
in the trees
I still feel my daddy’s spirit in the breeze
my heart doesn’t harden
still I cried a tear wishing you were here
while Koa and I walked to dance with my father again and together again
I have to keep remembering it will be better when we are together
until then i will send this poetic gesture in a letter
you can just reply whenever
in my head
i still feel the pull of thy phantom thread
love is like a butterfly
I am grateful to see the Jbird in flight
the dad of my earth life
i feel so alone
then I see the murmuration In the sky
I feel my daddy’s spirit under their wings as they  pass by
on this father’s day it is hard to wake
with this eternal heartache
in this bleak earth place
so I will sit with you here in this writer’s cafe
with a cup of coffee and gratitude
i ate a doughnut and thought of you
I always remembered the ones I would get with a rainbow sprinkle
our love is an eternal circle
with loving memory I can still smile on this earth
as I’m greeted once again by the Jbird