The Finest Drug

My bestie asked me if I am alright

I am dying and I wish I already died

I am grateful God opens my eyes

but I come alive to realize

I am still unchosen

so broken

i want what doesnt love me

i try not to want it but the more I dont want it the more i am hungry

wuthering heights as awakened the doom poetry

it seems this is my favorite land

we kissed and now forever I am damned

like a vampire craving the blood

whatever it was

i crave it so much

if it was love it was the finest drug

heathcliff and catherine were insane driven mad with passion

thats what happened to us but he handles it well

goes along like its a normal story to tell

but I will not be your dog

I will not be here waiting for you all along

i must cross over 

its such a lonely place

how do i go on without my life, my soul

Only God is my crutch keeping me whole

I guess for Him this mission is incomplete

so still He wakes my eyes

keeps the beat in my heart

I thought his JC tattoo was a sign

how can it be this way

how do you make the man stay

i never did know

so tonight its my hundred lonely valentine day and night

while the lovers walk in sunshine

i walk in this eternal rain of pain

and all my bestie can ask is am i alright?

am i?

All I know is you are mine and you better remember

i pray i never see your dead body like in the ending

we were doomed i must let go there is no defending

so be ware of who you kiss or you will be damned and there is no pretending

only the divine can heal the wounds with their tendering

all i want is true love

all bleak reality brings is the finest drug