she cries out

she cries out 
KeeKi MAC Casim
5/10/13
she don't cry ....
late at night when the moons full
her life so complicated a moments never dull
from a young age she wanted a blissful life, not full of spite,
or late nights but of good wholesome fun being a mother and wife

and technically at age 23 shes almost there
she walked across that stage and she thought she had a career
but at age 21 she was missing something in that moment
about romance,so she free lanced and she took a gamble
she moved away from home with mr. wrong cause life was too hectic
but her realities were fantities until life check it

so she's back sitting wondering how she got to this place
when she looks in the mirror her reflection is disgraced
but she feels closer to mission paladrones, to the the throne
because her romancatic  situation changed but so did her work ethic
they flip floped cause shes closer to her dream although it seems like a
battlefield before winter
she sits and prays on how to fix her life splinters

she cries out on the inside .
shes screaming she tries not to shout
shes angry so upset she can't figure this life thing out
how people so close to her can live her dream not worry
and she can't seem to compare with her life so weary
she gets dreary upset to the fact that shes not complacent
and she has what she wants on her mind but not a clue how to reach it
so she engages in destructive behavior
like party hard lifestyle, drinking, cutting, binge eating,
can someone save her

that's her cry..HELP she screams in her head .
shes begging for self help, but inside she feels dead, cause she can't get ahead
and she doesn't want to be so negitive but her thoughts she can't hide
and her stuggles so internal deeper than any fatal blow
and her thoughts are her weapon and her emotions take the wound
she self confidence in coma, cause she can't wake it up and
for this moment her love of self ,on a respiratior on the cusp
and shes starting to feel cold like she don't give a ......

and she don't she can't she won't
no one looks at her like she's crazy
she's the class star, the politician a true lady,
she's a sweetheart her life's perfect ,
she's a fighter, she's an angel ,
she's the girl dying internally
and her life is so painful
but she doesn't want attention so she wont show it
but she's crying out though you don't know it
she needs help , she can't ask for
cause shes the girl we all adore
we envy, we mock the school nerd the jock

she's lonely not physically but emotionally
she's killing herself although the world cannot see
she's crying out