A deep Dark Secret

A poem I wrote high school

Everyday I look normal

everyday I look at me

nothing looks wrongs

I stare and smile the face of serenity

But late at night something strange takes a hold of me

an unknown obsession, unfulfilled fantasies

It takes control of me 

it starts at first inside a room that water controls

I get on my knees and my head goes down

my hand goes down the pipe as I wish I was dead

and up comes the day I won't stop until Im Dizzy

or the pain I can't ignore.

afterward I exercise sometimes I do not eat at all

And when I give into temptations

The cycle repeats again
I want to but cannot stop

soon my life will fade away

my body will cease and drop.