What I'm trying to say?

once again, a response.

 

Gunpowder burns

As shot after shot is taken

Keeping my guard up so not to be taken as a fool

 

No longer do I stand meek

No longer do I kiss the hand that forsakes me

No longer do I fear rejection

 

You wanted a challenge

Now you got one

Someone that won't just go with the flow

 

But this might not be the mountain you want to climb

For you might not see the top

Or even the other side


A friend I am yet a friend probably not needed

As I'm not exactly bitter, but I'm not happy either

 Life moves on, the world moves on, and so will this


Have you been left behind to wander aimlessly

When you were the one "most prepared"

When arraignments have been made

 

So someone else could take my place

So someone else could deal with your face

Fine, I shook the dust of Anson off my feet

 

I know I'm not welcome

I know I'm not missed

I know I wouldn't be cheered with open arms

 

So I moved on

I let the season change

And I begin anew

 

I begin to take pictures again

I begin to write words into beauty once more

I begin to sing with a new voice as I haven't before

 

I yearn for labor

I yearn for schooling

I yearn for stability

 

What do you offer me?

Anger at the flick of a finger?

Apathy to my tears?

 

Give me a reason that has reason

Give me an objective for an object I no longer need

Give me an assignment that keeps the assigned important

 

Why leave when my needs are being met?

When love and understanding is abundant?

When tears are met with concern not disregard?

 

Filling my cup for the first time in a long time

Instead of trying to fill yours with the nothing in mine

And begging for a drop from yours?

 

I'm not lonely

I'm not upset

I'm not  straining

 

In my position would you leave?

Would you go somewhere that left you wanting inside?

Would you go somewhere that you couldn't sleep at night without crying?

 

What would you do?