Entry #2

1-29-2019 8:22pm

 Hello girl in the mirror...

 

       I see sadness in your eyes. You feel devastated and beat down. It's like you're acting as a character that you've been a thousand times before, a failure. Nothing seems to be going right. You feel like you’re doing everything wrong and losing your confidence/showing emotion about it just brings you down more. It’s so stupid, if someone asked me why I’m crying, what would I say? “I just feel like a failure today.” That’s a stupid, seemingly attention seeking answer. But all I want is to sit by myself and cry for a bit. After all, how can you move past something whose existence you refuse to acknowledge? I just want to be sad for a while. I need to let stupid emotion out from having a bad day. Why should I let a bad day ruin my night. I don’t know. I guess it doesn’t matter though, cause I just need to be sad for a while.

Author's Note

This was written in a free-writing style, so please ignore the grammatical mistakes.