Spouse

I am dieing inside because of this. But he is right, he always is.

With you removed from my defineless soul
A piece of me dies a piece of me fries
You unlock a chamber of confined misery
And undo my tightend, ruffeled ties.

I am speechless in a dark private corner
waiting for your blind sensless return
I can't look at the growing pain in your eyes
It makes me wrinkle up and it makes me burn

I am a zombie walking this dead earth
When your misery is soaking up to my face
I am a martian with no mind no head
I am just floating around in airless space.

Dealing with your hurt, dealing with this
Is wearing me down to a boring prune
I don't know what to do anymore while I'm here
But I know there won't be anything left soon.

I want so badly to wipe your running tears
But I don't think I have the strength to try
I am slammed to the dirt, I am a coward
blaming no one but me, holding back my soft cry.

My hands wish to support your ache
But they are no better then the hands of a mouse
I wish you would come back to me in this moment
Because you are more then everything to me, my spouse.