I've Done It Again

A little something more personal.

i lay sprawled on the hard floor.

the cold seeps into my pores,

even as i feel sweat break out.

i’ve done it again

and i know it’s wrong.

somehow the temptation this time

was just too much to bear.

i can smell the horrible stench

wafting into my nostrils.

the burning in my throat

sends fire throughout my body.

my fingers, still damp with saliva

lay motionless beside me.

i’ve done it again

and i know its wrong.

but the relief i feel each time

is silently killing me.

Author's Note

I wrote this a few years ago and found it in an old journal. I thought I'd share. I didn't edit it, just typed it up as it was. Tell me what you think, I'd love to hear from you.

Reviews

[The Analog Kid]

Very personal struggle or a story about someone with that demon. Nicely done as a poem.

[Mauricio Montoya]

Great choice of words to express the feeling of regret.
Excellent write.

[Brandon]

i have an idea what this is about and i know how the feeling is after especially if you dont want to but do, and if im off with what its about then my bad, also it was really well written.

[Hayley]

I get it. The emotion is what makes this powerful. Sometimes editing takes away from the genuine emotion that remains raw.

[Yari Garcia (Older Prof..]

I'd love to hear exactly what your talking about, but perhaps not. I guess I liked that it's a little vague.

[Mark]

This made me pause, and re-read. Now I get it. An emotionally gut-wrenching write. Hope you're using a writer's liberty to embellish.

[MariannaBeavis]

Its a change from what other things you have posted on here, taking a sort of darker and rough aspect. But I love it. Great job!