pills

Everywhere I look, there's an emptiness 
where you’re supposed to be.
I told the doctors how I see nothing in everything, 
so they prescribed pills to help me see.

My room is always so cold
but your breath was so hot.
I told the doctors I still feel it on my neck
so they gave me more pills to make it stop.

I took the pills for years
but they haven’t helped at all
So I stopped the prescriptions
and started buying adderall.

The doctors will never fully understand
that I will always look for you everywhere I go.
Antidepressants and mood stabilizers won’t
erase what everyone already knows.