alone with you

the beginning of the end

miss you even tho i have you everyday
the more i learn the more i ruin everything
i would do anything to touch you for the first time
to fall for you for the first time
to experience you without the aches that come with knowing
i long for the innocence in our first month
where we were lying to each other
when we said that “i’m yours” and did mean it
i miss when you didn’t mean that much to me and i could throw you away
now i can’t imagine a life where you don’t stay
it’s sick that this s**t moved so fast
when i’m still getting swallowed by my past
i’d do anything to make the fantasy last
it’s too late i love you and i showed my a*s
i bet i was hotter when i didn’t give a f**k
the mystery behind if this is the last one
maybe i was better off on the side
i miss the warmth before i cried
now im here with you alone