Only For You

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Sometimes, I cry, my tears; staining my bedsheets

Almost like a bomb going off, my screams emit from my throat

I am dying

Well… almost

Slowly my energy is draining from my body

I think of you so often

So often… so often

I drink with cupped hands, water; I do not deserve

I do not deserve to have these privileges

Not when I’ve been so selfish

Not when I’m without you

No… I don’t want to live anymore, not here, not without you

I need

I need

Someone to hold me and dry my tears

 

 

NO… I WILL NOT CONFORM TO THINGS I AM NOT WILLED TO CONFORM TO

I AM NOT A DOLL

I AM NOT A PUPPET

DON’T THINK CONTROLLING ME IS AS EASY AS SHOOTING COMANDS TO AN ARMY

SHOUTING ORDERS AND EXPECTING RESPECT

I WILL NO LONGER BE YOUR PET

I HAVE A HEART

AND A MIND

AND DESIRES

THAT, TOO ARE DECISIVE IN THEIR OWN

THAT, TOO ARE EXPECTANT FOR THEIR PAY

THEIR DELIVERY

THAT, TOO BECOME WEAK WITH THE VULNERABILITY

OF THEIR OPENNESS

 

 

 

Slowly, I am crumbling, with hopes of coming back together; I stand tall even through the storm

I will come to you

I will wrap my fragile arms around you

I will close my eyes and feel your love on me

I will dream and keep dreaming

Of your touch

Of you

I will keep my faith in those stars I so rarely see in the night sky

No one’s going to break me

No one

 

 

 

I HAVE BECOME STRONGER THAN WHAT I’VE TOLD OF MYSELF TO BE

STRONGER, I’VE BECOME STRONGER WITH YOUR LOVE

THAT FAITH, I KEEP HERE IN MY HEART

 

 

 

*Be patient, my love, for one day, we will meet, we will

We will meet

And when we do, do not forget what was said