“Keep in mind” khatoon hazara ||| 10:23am fri. 4.5.19

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“Keep in mind” khatoon hazara ||| 10:23am fri. 4.5.19

I’m still a lil drunk from yesterday

Thought the sleet and ice would take the pain away

So I stood in the blizzard and rain

Hoping someone, somehow would feel the change

I lost a lot when I lost you

A part of me died with you too

I thought the distraction would be enough

But nothing compares to the weight of your love

I ran in circles trying to find my tail

A purpose of someone gone derailed

I didn’t think I’d find more than a shred of who I used to be

But there it is

An age old trade

A bridge of broken bones now Rest In Peace

I thought I had lost my mind

When I lost you, I lost track of time

I didn’t know which way to turn

Which bridge to burn

I’m in a spiral and I wish it led back to you

Today is the final resting place

Your tombstone in your grave

Has been replaced

I forgot how you sound like

It'll be 6 months and I’m still confused

What do i do

I had a dream you never came back

I don’t wanna dream of happiness

And love at last

If that’s exactly what we can’t have

I’m still bitter over the very end

The lack of happiness

I’m still a lil high from the wind

The needles and the pines have spiked my skin

Filled me with the rage within

That I can’t control

I told myself I was nothing else

If nothing else

Swam in a pool of their own regret

Broke hearts and broken lies

Can I spare you a bit of my goodbyes

Coz it always seems to follow the same pattern

Follow me and I’ll show you what I’ve learned

The darkness has a heavy feeling on my shoulders

Maybe someone somewhere can lessen the blow 

And even if I never even cared to hold you

Initially wasn’t i the one that told you to keep away from me

My heart has gone numb and is on overdrive 

Can I help you to some coffee 

Does it help knowing that the caffeine is to my liking

I never knew how to end my thought

Never knowing how to end a poem

Sometimes it just ends so short

So.... suddenly.

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