“LOVE (SWEET LOVE)” - Khat

“LOVE (SWEET LOVE)”

9.6.21

7.57pm

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I never had the chance to say I did it alone,

But I can finally say that I did it on my own,

I dug my grave and jumped inside,

I caved in and went out of my mind,

Nobody helped me,

Nobody came to my rescue, but me,

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I dried my own tears and held myself close,

When I was spiraling, I didn’t let me get too close,

I cut off the drama, and handled it well,

Damn, I’m so f*****g strong, I didn’t even ask for any help,

I’m so used to it now, I’m independent,

Emotionally broken, but, I made it,

Who the f**k need friends when you got yourself,

The whole team threw you under a bus, thank God, I got myself,

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Miss Independent,

So long Co-Dependency,

I don’t need anyone,

I just need me,

There was so much blood on my hands, s**t- who cared if anyone understood,

On my own two feet, I stood- without you,

I had to pick up my own pieces coz there was nobody around,

Damn, I used to have people that would shake me awake, but I guess I had to do that myself,

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All the b*****s claiming to be my friend, saying they knew me in the past, well they did nothing but interfere,

S**t, yeah, I’m feeling all high and mighty, coz f*****g nobody had me while I was drowning,

I drove the car in a vat of s**t,

Had to tear myself apart just to get out of it,

I still got nobody, gotta hold myself down,

I ain’t showing up for nobody, f**k ya, I’m making it on my own now,

I used to complain about the loneliness,

Well yeah, coz the darkness used to use me,

I guess that’s what I get for complaining,

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Whoever said I didn’t mind?

S**t, I could use a friend for a while,

Its been a year and 4 months,

F**k that, never mind, I’ll get along,

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I don’t want drama,

It used to be a cycle,

Never listened to nobody,

Now I’m listening to myself,

S**t, I never felt so free before,

I never felt so alive before,

I never had so much time with me before,

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Now, I want more,

I need to explore,

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I feel so good with me by my side,

I used to see the spark in my eyes,

Now it ain’t there

I need to get it back,

I used to love hearing me laugh,

Now its silent, we gone get that back,