lately...

Lately..... all I've done is sit here and think of you
I close my eyes as my tears build up my insanity (Don't leave me again) is all I wish to say to you
Because when you leave I'll be lost and depressed more than ever ..... I'd literally run after you begging you to stay
"We've had rough pasts and many heart breaks"
But hearing the news that I'll never get the chance to see you in person has killed me inside more than once..... (falling in love)
I can't tell what's real or fake anymore "I just wish you knew how much I care and love you"
It's not something I tell every guy I meet.... its something more than a friendly hug or flirting
All I see of you is pictures and in every dream that I've been having lately....
Time zones...
Your half smile (smirk)...
Your eyes that tell stories....
If only you knew the things you didn't about me.. (you've yet to ask)
I'd be the one to kiss you first before you kissed me
(Sadly, I'm laying here crying and wishing you were laying next to me).... I'd wake up to you and ask how'd you sleep? "BABY I LOVE YOU"
I'm listening to the sound of your voice in my head saying" find someone who loves you for you this year" but in the end guess who I'm thinking of...... YOU AND ONLY YOU"
I've done a lot of dreaming and wishing of you to see me
"Please I have to get this chance to see you"
Before you leave again, I've got a million questions that literally have answer..... "Do you know that I care about you? , I miss you, I love you, and I care about you deeply
Lately I've lost sleep, just because I may or may not see you again (Even though we've never met in person, besides seeing you though real and mental images)
Lately. .... in my dreams I'm chasing after you because I'll always and forever love you