Am I?

I cant explain the purpose or the inspiration for this piece. Nor can I describe it. The description and meaning of this piece can only be determined by you.

Am I... a abomination in God’s eyes?

Am I... a person who make’s evil rain from the sky?

Am I... a person who wants to bring the world to an end?

Am I... someone who cares about nothing but the hair on my head?

Am I... seen as the root of all evil?

Am I... a person who acts medieval?

Am I... suppose to be something other than myself?

Am I... a person who’s personality herts my health?

Am I... a bad person?

Am I... a special person?

Am I... someone who should be locked up?

Am I... looked down upon by God?

Am I... going to hell?

Am I... experiencing demonic feelings?

Am I... being influenced by the devil?

Am I... not praying enough to make these “evil feelings” go away?

Am I... not putting enough effort to stop these feelings?

Am I... not strong?

Am I... lying to myself?

Am I... deceiving myself?

Am I... preventing God from loving me?

Am I... walking away from the kingdom of Heaven?

Am I... my parents worst nightmare?

Am I... Christian?

Am I... Gay?

 

I really know that those are the “Am I’s” that are giving myself and my family such issues at the present moment. Those “Am I’s” burden me every day when I wake and when i fall asleep. Those “Am I’s” can be the end of my relationship with some of my family and friends. Im not yet ready to emphatically answer some of those “Am I’s” to my family, but I now feel that some people are ready to hear the answers to some of those “Am I’s” directly from me. Those people are ready to hear the answer I feel is truly correct for myself. I’m not confused, I’m not stupid, and I’m not delusional. I AM ME! and only me, myself, and I can answer those “Am I’s”! no one else! not my parents, not my church, not my friends, not my family, ME! and the same should go for you. Only you can answer your own “Am I’s” in life! yes you can get advice from people you trust and love, but in the end your the person who changes those “Am I’s”, to I am’s.    

 

Author's Note

Please write what was on your mind right after you read this.

Reviews

[Andrew'sWonderland]

Throughout the whole poem, looms a cloud of melancholic despair. I really got quite intertwined and hope that things are not as bad as I perceive them!! If you need to talk, you know I am always here to help in the best way that I possibly can!! I must say that I thoroughly agree.... You are who YOU are, no one else. A special creation made in the image of God!!!