Trichotillomania

When I feel the anxiety 

my fingers go to my hair.

They have a mind of their own

and that's how they end up there.

They grab a brown strand and twirl,

then so innoceantly they tear.

Inside myself I feel the release

as I so carefully pull without care.

 

Many think it very strange

that a beautiful girl like me

would destroy her attractiveness,

(her alleged outer beauty)

they wonder to themselves

"Oh, how on Earth could this be,

that this young teenaged girl

could purposely do such things?"

 

But I myself don't have to wonder,

don't have to look very far

to see all the stressors in my life

that drive me to be "bizarre".

And when I feel my stressors, 

my fingers will pick and pull and scar.

There's nothing I can do about it,

that is just how my coping skills are.

 

Author's Note

I wrote this after watching a Taboo episode about a teenage girl with this hair-pulling disorder. Please tell me what you think(:

Reviews

[Celestial Witch Child]

I really like it. Though I would revise the multiple use of "hair" in the first stanza. It feels a bit redundant.

[kayla]

thanks(: I changed it.

[Celestial Witch Child]

(:

[Tai Ryens]

Trichotillomania... I had a very close friend who had this (Damn do I miss her), and it is a hard thing to have. Very excellent.

[xxxrawr_friendxxx]

I really like it C: I've been writing about disorders and such but I'm a bit sketchy about posting them :/ Yours is excellent. Very relatable. Good job :3

[kayla]

thx(: And don't be scared to post them :P lol