Ode to my Mother

 

You were my best friend,

How could you do it?

I obviously never knew you

Or the things you were capable of.

 

I wouldn’t have gone through it

If I’d have known how it’d all turn out.

I would’ve left alone and let you fend for yourself,

The way you did me.

 

You weren’t safe there,

And we all knew it.

I convinced you to go,

And now I know why you finally agreed.

 

I did it for the both of us,

But my whole life was a lie.

I thought we were in it together,

But you planned to abandon me all along.

 

It hurts so much that I push the thought away,

And I learned to trust no one.

You ripped my heart out.

I’ll never be the same.

 

It hurts more than anything he ever did

Because I never loved or trusted him.

I never called him my best friend.

Betrayal hurts worse than abuse any day.

 

You’re a different person now

With your new life,

But you’re still just as weak as you always were,

And by making me face it alone,

I AM STRONGER.

Author's Note

ignore the uneven pentameter...this is just a rant.