shatter

at times you just wanna quit

It goes around,
Round and round it waves
Back and forth
Like a blazing fire too strong to die
I avert my eyes
From the alluring light
As it dances,
Round and round.

It consumes me--
An underwhelming ambush
of emotional packages
from hell--
like a lullaby from death
subtly creeping its way
to haunt fragile souls
who stand at the very edge of life.

It chains my feet,
like they were hands;
Slender fingers
caress my frozen flesh
as if to eagerly
sentence me
To the sweetest, fleeting
Nightmare

My skin crawls away, leaving me
bones and soul,
A defenceless fragility
begging me to break
Shatter
like a rock;
Shatter
quietly, stoically

It shackles my heart,
(and I die for a second)
and strays a little higher;
Slowly, gently,
it whispers unethically,
into a voice I do not understand;
Slowly, squeezing its cold fingers
until it’s choking me, gently.

Until I breathe nothing
but my own twisted agony
Until I break
and forget who I am yesterday
Until I surrender
and begged myself to fall
Until I burst
and shatter from all the exhaustion.