Self Abuse

A poem about what I recently experienced.

You raped me, yes it was consensual

but the feelings you had towards me were strictly sexual

You stripped me of my clothes, as well as my feelings

im now hoping for an ounce of healing

i came only for you

but you had me wandering without a clue

i was left stranded, naked, and alone in bed

im wanting to make sense of whats left in my head

You took advantage of my weakness, which has always been you

i use to be bright but i cant help but to feel so blue

i am no longer your katherine baby

because im always wishing and hoping maybe

not once in my life have i felt so alone

the love i have for you hurts each and every bone

why would you rape me of almost everything

what is now left wont stop melting

Please dont blame yourself

its completely my fault

 

Its my fault i allowed to be used

ill go ahead and admit it was Self Abuse

　

Author's Note

May be a tad deep, but what do y'all think?

Reviews

[Jamie]

Very deep but very well written!

[GreenEyedPoet]

Such a raw and emotional, but sad, piece. You definitely make the reader feel something with this poem. Great piece. I hope you're ok though!

[J. K. Beach]

Kris,

You have planted words here ripe with feeling, yet without the often accompanying self-pity. Raw emotions have bloomed onto the page, and yet you, or your subject, seems to have have survived... remember, though, that no one is blameless as long as we live in society with others. You are not alone... but you are brave! May the catharsis of getting it all down in ink (or electrons) let you move forward toward peace... An excellent write!

[Kyline Freed]

This is amazing! The way you interpreted the words and feelings made the feeling of the poem greater!

[Jamestown]

Very deep raw emotions running wild, so extremely sad! I am utterly amazed
and confused at the end of this write, but to each there own. I pray that you
are ok and can move forward in life to find peace and happiness.
Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[C. Rose]

I like the alignment to the right. It is jarring and makes the reader feel something is off from the very beginning. Great detail and pacing. This type of poem can tend to ramble, but with yours every stanza moves it forward. I love when poems make a point at the beginning, then repeat that point at the end but expand upon that point and link it to the title. In other words, you have great structure.

[kay writer]

thank you so much! I'll admit, this is the second poem I have ever written. I'm still learning but thank you again!

[Eliza K.]

This is incredibly deep and heart-wrenching. It almost hurts to read something with so much emotion, but that adds to the impact. Well done. This piece is incredible.