Flicker

Thoughts racing through my head
Yet not a flicker a doubt shows on my face
But on the inside
Turmoil is about.
So many emotions
So much pain and hurt.
The thoughts
Of wanting to face my last sunset
My last day.
But it would cause so much pain
To my friends
Who became like family
And no longer just are friends to me.
Then the fear comes
I want to die
Yet im scared
No matter what shows on my face
I've a ton of fear inside.
No matter what the scars say
I been through.
There is always a thought
Will tonight be the last