Birthday blues

Having a rough night and couldn't sleep so after years of dormant I decided to writw

Two voices battling
Keeping me awake,
Tearing me down
Taking me apart.
Depression and anxiety,
Clouding my thoughts

As I sit here alone
A day before my celebration of birth,
Depression screaming at me
Anxiety racing my mind.

Overwhelmed
Scared by my own mind
Unable to tell if the thoughts,
I hear screaming in my mind
Truth or lie.

Tears start falling
As once again old ways
Flow inti my mind
Ways of pain

Will it always be there?
Am I just to be haunted by ways
once thought gone from my mind?
Will I always just be a step away?

Tracing thr memories
Of those days of pain,
The scars on my body
Never to leave
Always to remind
A reminder of pain
My past
And now even.